when i realized who was hosting our last mealtrain, it was all too appropriate in my mind. arthur and carrie - my camp director and my camp art director, respectively. they knew me before glenn and today, they know me after glenn. arthur and carrie were like camp godparents - keeping an eye on you from afar, but always in touch, and no matter when i saw them throughout all of these years, i always felt so connected.
arthur's cottage pie and carrie's angel cookies were both comforting and scrumptious.
so today as i reflect on these last 5 months i've put together this list of ideas, lessons and experiences.
being mom is number one
being good to myself is also number one - when i take care of me, i am a better mom
saying no and saying yes are both good for the new structure of my family
learning to let trust in with caution
community/village is a such a good thing
continue to build a virtual library of sources
soups, turkey meatloaf, bread and cookies freeze well (i'm stockpiling for the summer :)
having faith in my honesty
opening my heart to being loved
when i feel vulnerable i protect myself
truly realizing this time around that family labels are just that, and what is more important is the relationship and actions behind my people
hopeful that my journal can inspire, motivate and help
my pace is the right pace for me
my daughters are individuals and they are on their own pace
santa monica farmers market fare is beautiful
questioning other people's motives is okay
better than best is how i describe my friends
at the end of the day, i'm not interested in hiding from myself
i don't have to own other people's problems or busy-ness so it's okay to tune those people out right now
little to-dos which often feel like big ones can be accomplished in due time - no need to put extra pressure or urgency on myself
i'm not obligated to answer "how are you"
i'm not glenn and i don't aspire to fill his shoes
i love meditteranean, israeli, persian food and its robust flavors
working out is just another metaphor for living life - keeps me moving forward
relying on morgan and sara who are true partners in this household
continue to believe in personal accountability
see's scotchmallows can pretty much cure the blues, along with a dark&stormy
pizza soup, quinao lasagna, turkey meatballs, chili, ribs, lentil soups, chicken enchiladas, breakfast for dinner, salmon & veggies, chinese chicken salad, tamales and chicken pot pie, brisket, deli, chicken - every possible dish conceivable, sushi, pizza, shrimps, tacos, kale salads, and so much more -- LOVE you all.
mt and my community helped me to get back on my feet, to navigate through such a big world, to trust, to not feel so alone on the darkest of days, and to look forward to another day.
so, i'm still working out the kinks but here is the link for my new space (still need to transfer old mt posts onto this..):
heading to YAS tomorrow with Suzanne and pals to try their 5:30a spin/yoga.
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