it has been an emotional rollercoaster this past week going from the bat mitzvah to the lake arrowhead house. we shared some hugs and tears as sara locked up the arrowhead house today, and not more than 5 minutes after driving away, the girls were already chattering away about camp and how excited they are.
tonight we are happy to be back in our santa monica nest again.
this morning ed and i hit the trail again.
i felt so much slower than i did on wednesday, but my time was pretty consistent.
after ed probably figured out that i wasn't scared of bears (on our first run he yelled "bear" to motivate me to catch up to him and well, that didn't really work), every 10 minutes or so he called out to make sure i was okay. we were a good team.
i did stumble on the trail today, first time ever. i didn't get hurt, but it startled me. my hands caught my fall and i have minor scratches to show for it. my head was so foggy thinking about how glenn didn't really know how to cope with life's downs and flats. he only seemed to know what to do in the up moments. i know that he started the process more recently in his life, but he definitely resisted looking too deep within. it's one thing to analyze and talk about other people's flaws or problems, but facing your own, learning to understand them, and ultimately having the awareness to change or accept is being most true to yourself.
my ultimate goal as a mom is to give my daughters the foundation of how to cope in life and allow them to face both good and bad. my biggest fear right now is that they will fall into their father's footsteps.
going to the 7a yogahop class tomorrow with paula (and maybe connie : )
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