finals, a postponed hanukkah and looking to 1/3/14

finals are here.
girls are working hard and studying diligently.
when the week ends, the three of us will finally celebrate the holiday with gifts and favorite foods, 9 candles in our hannukiah, and time together.
we're pushing along to january 3rd.
i'm definitely beginning to get flashbacks - mostly in the late afternoon, when i made that call to todd asking him if he knew where glenn was.
on a very intellectual level, i know history will not repeat itself (how can it?), but the thoughts and images that run through my mind sometimes transport me quickly to that horrible afternoon and night. right now, i'm just getting glimpses. not sure what to expect over these next several week. i will continue to be as open as possible, and welcome my feelings.
after finals and our holiday celebration, the girls and i will pow wow about the upcoming anniversary. what we want it to look like for us in this new world we continue to build.
i never ever thought i would say this...glenn is becoming a (distant) memory.

59 xmas lights.
CW 5:30a.