done

someone i know who is going through some pretty rough times in his life said he just wants to be over it. he is "done." he wants to wake up tomorrow morning with all of the hard shit - the unexepected crying, the lash out anger, the guilt, the unexplained -- he so badly wants all of it to be behind him already.

i empathized with him today. 

there is only so much one person can take. and just when i begin to feel fortified, someone says something, i read something or i remember, and the vulnerability wants to take over in me. this is when i most hate my life. it is a total lack of control. and intellectually, i understand and am aware what is happening, but emotionally i feel like a child, and today felt helpless.

morgan and i met emmy, rach and MP at soul this morning - em leaves for michigan tomorrow a.m. and after class, the three of us all got lots of hugs and kisses in with her. i didn't dance today, but instead swam. had to take morgan & sara to staples for their beginning of the school year supply shopping trip (nightmare!).

going to CW at 5:45 tomorrow morning.